FWIW, I've been sitting on this diary for almost a month, debating whether or not to publish it.
For most of the last two years, I've been dealing with depression. At first, I tried to manage it - you know, healthy diet, regular exercise. And that worked for a while. But it stopped working.
The problem is that depression impairs the skills you need to deal with it. Even though I knew I was depressed, I couldn't do anything about it. That's one of the stranger parts of my journey - I knew I was depressed and I still couldn't do anything about it. Just thinking of doing something about depression seemed too hard.
So I sank into depression.